Rest in Peace
Hi Jopa!
You know what the interesting thing is… You had always said that after being a boxer for 20 years you learned something: “They can can kill my Body, but they can’t kill my SPIRIT”! Well now they have Executed your Body and I can still See and Feel how Powerful your Spirit Is. Thank You for still being with me as a Guiding Force, thank you for finding ways of Communicating with me, thank you for still Protecting me and watching over me as you now Fly through the Sky and the Earth. After all; You are FREE… You have now become my own personal Barron Samedi, one of the Guédés, Lwa or Spirits of Death, a Guardian at the Crossroads. Thank you for Loving me. In this Lifetime and in every Lifetime.
With all my Love ; Pachou
P.S. Your right; It’s not Love anymore; It’s Spiritual. When you’re Right; you’re Right. I Love You! _________________________________________________________________________________
Yoga is truly an amazing Practice. Life always seems to give us; Humans… an opportunity to put the tools of Yoga into practice in order to test the Theory. I LOVE testing Theories, that’s how I find Truth or Satya. The Theory I am testing right now is the first Yama in the 8 Limb Path of Yoga called Ahimsa or Non-Violence.
It all starts December 26, 2011 when my husband, my best friend, my Lover, my Love, my Life partner, Travel guide and camping partner was poisoned and later assassinated in Our bed.
My home was violated in such a way that goes beyond what the average MiNds could Comprehend and I have basically been told I can not go back to a country Witch is not my own but, I have Roots to get my belongings so I have to walk away from everything I own, physical and material [now isn't that a twist to the situation]. Who’d a thunk it?
Hey; at least they didn’t take my Soul… But they tried! Thank You for saving me; attitude of gratitude*
The home that I speak of was in Petion-Ville, Haiti, of course this was just my place of residence, I can not really call it Home. I mean you know the old cliché about Home and where the Heart is? Well Haiti is where my Ukrainian husband ventured off to. Although we were not very welcomed to the country as Individuals or as a couple. We accepted it and we had each other. Together we did explore all of the Beauty that exists within the Land and the Nature. My husband went to this Land/Country Haiti and created jobs and opportunities, he saw Potential, gave it Love and organized the first national boxing championship for the less fortunate children of Haiti and what did he got in return; Execution! At least that’s my Opinion…. We all have the Right to our Opinions; Right?
Our home was broken into by removing metal bars that were cemented around a window that the police estimate took about 17 min. with equipment. Someone was prepared… My husband Aleksandr Ivanovich Dobrianskiy a light sleeper never woke up, he was shot once in head and once in the chest, puke all over the bed. ewww, how gross is that? I mean Seriously; that’s disgusting on Every fuckin’ Level dude! The person or people that committed this crime; because in reality who really knows the hand or mouth that this order actually came from… Hum?
Anyhoo these [people] only took a few items from Our home. Items like his mobile phone, they blew our safe open with a torch, they took our money, his watch collection, the computer on his desk, oh and HIS LIFE and that’s it. Nothing else in our home was taken or touched. So this is where I had to ask myself was it a burglary, an assassination, or simply Hate and Jealousy?
Non-the-less the Co-Incidence is that it was the day after Christmas and the day before my husband, Sasha {short for Aleksandr} would arrive to meet me in Florida so we could head off to San Diego to celebrate the New Year. Ha Ha Ha… I really don’t believe in Co-Incidences.
You truly are an amazing Fighter Jopa…
I am so Proud of You.
You did a great Job Babe!
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This is the point where my MiNd has been completely dis-entagled and I’m trying to understand What the Fuck! I am trying very hard to grasp an understanding of how deep Hatred, Jealousy and Ignorance can dwell in another Human Beings Soul. I feel Sadness, Anger, Vengeance, Disgust, Bitterness, Sorrow, In-Sanity and Hatred running all though my MiNd, veins, and Spirit all at the same Time. What the Fuck?
Another Human Being or Beings have shaken my Vibration. Another Human Being has violated some-One’s Right to Live. Some other Being is such a coward that they had to poison my Husband first. You Suck! I really am trying so hard to understand how Evil could another Human Being BE, but it’s just not making any Sense.
Sasha did spend the last 10 years telling me that to understand how Bad or Evil people are you have to be just like them and it’s not worth it. Your right Baby, it’s Not. Thank You for bringing me the Message. 
Here we are a month and a half later and I decided to put the Ahimsa Theory to the Test. Guess what Jopa; It’s Working.
I am still very Sad, Shocked,Scared and Angry. Yet, throughout this MiNd blowing time of my Life; I find myself searching for Compassion. Compassion for those less fortunate than I to not know Self-Love or Self-Respect. I search deep within my Spirit or Soul to find Forgiveness and Love for my-Self, re-Create my Life, Re-embrace my Power of Light and strengthen my Vibration of Peace. After all; at the end of the day, it all starts with the Self. So I continue my Journey and I start searching in my MiNd, in my Heart and in my Soul to forgive those who trespassed against Us. Not lead me into Temptation, but deliver me from Evil.
So Mote it Be!
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So I am testing the Theory of Ahimsa by slowly letting go of the violence in my MiNd. Every-Day is a Battle and I am fighting very hard Babe. I’m fighting to find Peace again, I’m fighting to be Stronger, I’m fighting for the Light, but it’s so Hard Jopa. Even though it’s hard I’m finding ways to do it and I’m working on it. I Promise to always remain a Warrior ~ For Love? Of Course…

Thank You for always telling me: “Don’t let people get to you Pachou, a true Warrior stands strong and continues to Fight.” So I’m fighting Jopa. This fight is really hard. It’s hard because I am battling my-Self. You always did say that the hardest thing to fight is your-Self. But, you always did it and Won. Conquer your Fears. Because what You Fear Controls You… I Remember. So, I’m doing it I am shedding my tears to water the Seeds I have Planted so that the flowers may Bloom once again. I’m writing, I’m reading, I’m Meditating, I’m Painting, I’m Creating and I’m Fighting for Inner Peace. Yes Babe, I am doing it in Silence and Solitude.
I Love You Jopa. You will always be my Vi-King!
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In perfect Love and perfect Trust Live and Let Live. An’ Ye harm NONE, do what thou Wilt!
~Wiccan Rede~

Ahimsa= Non-violence or compassion for all living things.
Ahimsa is the first Yama which signifies its importance. The word ahimsa literally means non-violence. Not to injure or show cruelty to any creature or any person including your Self in any way. Ahimsa is, however, more than just lack of violence it is the absence of both active and passive violence. It means kindness, friendliness, thoughtfulness and consideration for all living beings, humanity and creatures, rocks, rivers, trees, oceans, essentially Mother Earth, the Universe, the Cosmic, the SELF. Ahimsa implies that in every situation we should adopt a considerate attitude. Ultimately the yogi or yogini aspires to eliminate all forms of violence both within and without.

You were truly a beautiful Human Being, Powerful Spirit and Great Friend.
Thank You; it was Awesome!
Putanjali once said; When You are Inspired by some great Purpose, some extra-Ordinary project or an un-Imaginable Situation, all your Thoughts break their BONDS or Bounds; Your MiNd transcends Limitations, Your Consciousness expands in every direction and this is when You find Your-self in a New, Great and Wonderful World . Dormant Forces, faculties and Talents become ALIVE. This is the moment you Discover Your-Self to be far GREAT ER than You ever Dreamed or Demanded Your-Self to BE!
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So my Journey Begins in what seems like a horrifying moment in My Life but, I will always remember the words Be Your-Self, Respect Your Individuality and Embrace Your POWER!

After all… I’m sorry,
I can’t Hear You over the Sound of how Awesome I Am!
I Promise,
To Be Continued…








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